bull by the horns

I have finally gotten around to bringing over my old posts. Not that I have the time to be working on it today, but I at least downloaded all my LJ posts from 2001-2007.

For your viewing pleasure you can now access my entires from May 2001- January 2003.

Looking at all these posts has me thinking about who I am and what I wanted back then to what I have now.

I have taken the bull by the horns and am living life. So many of the dreams I had, I am living- thanks to all the hard work I put into everything and the amazing people around me supporting, caring and loving me.

There are a lot of entries that stood out. Yet, what stood out as a whole is how much more I wrote. Not just silly, daily posts and memes- but that I wrote heartfelt, deep, miserable topics. To be young and miserable is to be able to recognize love and happiness later. Part of me, misses the inner torment, the avoidance of self through many bottles. I do not want to go back there- but I really cherish those times and wish I spent more time living in that state during my early 20's.