to say i miss a lot of what was is an understatement
to say i am sad, and alone is something i do not want to admit to

my eyes pinch from crying.

for you not to remember the one thing i remember so clearly makes me angry and feeling ignorant in believing something for so long, i thought you meant. but didnt. i thought was important, but isnt. that i have based dreams and safety on but was false.

again, caught blind sided from my own stupidity.