job rants

(series of combined posts between May-July 2005)

july 28
i gave my 2 weeks notice yesterday. it came to a shock of the obivious department director and to many co workers (some of which said - what took you so long) knowing i was miserable probably helped. but when you have been in a job for 3 and a half years (about) leaving always comes as a suprise to people. the shock of me leaving will be the big ol box of my pictures/cds i take today. and the real shock will come when i am not there to deal with all the projects my manager never knew passed by my desk. because i am efficant and can multitask-meaning- i do things for people with out mentioning itso the count down is on. I have 9 days left to work.


july 24
I hope i get to give notice by wednesday.
i also hope I am escorted out when i quit.
but becasue i want to be, I wont.

july 9th
this weeks update:
interview: went well. they called the next day to schedule interview number 2. 3 positions with the same title are open. want to start counting the chickens, but am resisting it.

I REALLY WANT THE JOB!!! lets hope they can work out a bit more money

show: was funny. lost a wig. other than that I did ok needs some work

work: you know the shity job
i wanted to just walk out of this week. hopefully i can do that next week. 3+ years of being there and all i want to do is piss my boss of and respond with "ok fine your way is perfect too bad I wont be here to see it, consider this my notice" (middle finger goes up and i leave)or fuck off and walking out might be nice

work: doing photoshoot of band today. I hate this. i was ropped in becasue it is family. I did all there design work and the base design for the web page (although they thankfully hired someone else to dothe actual webdesign and backend) i kinda branded all of it. which means i am stuck directing the photoshoot which i do not want to do. especially after the week @ work i had.

cancun: the last week in october. booked a prepaid hotel package so when (and if) i get the new job i can say: well, I already have a vacation planned this week. I can change it if need be but I would perfer to still take it and i know it would be unpaid...


july 12th
pysco bitches comment of the day
"had you been here Friday afternoon I would have fired you."so yesterday I received my first letter of probation. The "warning letter" which is emailed.

The next letter I will receive will be written and I will need to sign it. The following letter will be termination. how many of you think I can get fired before I find a new job?! After her behavior yesterday, I called in sick today. She physically made me ill yesterday afternoon, much of which I spent in the potty dealing with being ill. I can not work like this anymore.

I have calculated quitting to give my notice even if I do not get a new job on Wednesday july 20. Which would put my 2 weeks termination day (even if I am escorted out) on Aug 3rd, Giving me one month to find new employment with my ass still having health care.But, hopefully, as of this afternoon, I will know if I will be starting a new job. ---

about 20 times between these 2 events: I really hope i get this job i am interviewing for.

JULY 20 2005 5:21 AM
i think no one talking to me at work might be a good thing. I got pissed off for someone saying to my boss that all i do is check my email and book vacations. Just because i am not loud about all the work I do, doesnt mean I do not do work. If anything I am far more productive than most people imagine. I not only handle their mundane admin duties of grading tests and phones but I usually manage to deal with my own work of slides, binders, talking to vendors, ordering materials, making weekly newsletter mailings, website development, color correction, diploma making and god knows what else.

Oh yeah, fixing other peoples computers because our IT department is slow and I am right there to fix it. Its a one hand washes the other relationship. I deal with stupid issues if i need upgrades or want to borrow a projector for the weekend, it is never a problem.

Backstabbing bitch=coworker loudmouth late 30s 3 year old kid, obviously not getting laid, terrified and insulting of homosexuals, insulting of people who are in poly relationships, insulting of anything she doesnt understand. Likes to tell physco bitch boss lady everything that happens in the office. or could be happening. so if you want something to get back to PBBL- you mention it to BSB. Apparently, I did something worng at work. Conversation is as follows : PBBL-"one of your co workers mentions that you look for jobs at work and check your email" me (thought to self... hmmm I dont look for anything but transfers while I am at work, I also dont really check email all that often.. but the only person who might see that is the person who sits next to me.. ohhh BSB!!

i respond with "well maybe if you going to punish me, you should punish everyone. I guess others shouldnt be doing things like ordering off ebay for their daughters birthday party, and buying childrens clothes (FYI BSB is the only one with a kid in our area..)

So BSB always asks me for favors. Like finding stuff on the Internet for her kid, or her niece or printing out pictures. None of which i have a problem with doing, but as I mentioned before. One hand washes the other- ie: me and the boys in IT. She doesnt realize that I too can be a bitch. so all the manipulation of the BSB co worker on the boss turns against her.

I treat people at work in one way.

I evaluate their position if we were in a power play BDSM situation. I top the boss from the bottom. Same with BSB. but i play it differently. I am enjoying playing them against one another now- something i havent tried. PSBL is now really nice to meso the coworkers decide they all want to wear uniforms to work. and they decide to all secretly coordinate company tshirts and beige pants for yesterday. I wanst told because well I am not apart of the team. But I found out about it before hand. So I wore a suit. So when they all looked like comp usa workers I looked professional. It was noticed by the director. I scored points. I then spent part of my afternoon talking with him about what the specs of the studio we are building are going to be.


When I quit I will enjoy it.

2.23.2005
-breathe-
its only a job. sometimes, it just feels awful. and today being here, is one of those days, again.

i know i find meaning in everything else i do but after driving an hour only to feel worthless it isnt the most enjoyable feeling.