mixed thought process

so it is my favorite day of the month and it is also my least favorite day of the month.

today is cramps and headache from hell (least favorite- it means I feel not so good, and I also do not get to have really wonderful sex before i leave for work)

but tonight, i get to go to acupuncture. i <3 acupuncture. i always feel so wonderful after it. It helps my back pain- which i am pretty sure is casued by the crappy seat I sit here at the office along with poor muscle tone in my abdominal muscles. My body never really had the core strength it did previous to surgery.

which brings me to think i need to work out more than I am. Right now I am doing about 2 hours on Friday Sat and Sunday. And 30 min of yoga or cardio 2-3 times during the week. The scale has stayed the same but my body has gotten thinner and tighter. my flabby thighs have gotten toned and less fatty. This is good. This is even prooved by that today (period start bloat day) i put on this super cute polkadot dress I got last summer and was a little tight and never fot quite right, fits perfectly now.

i hate the scale, i am 6 pounds hjeavier than I was last april, but my clothes fit me losser and i feel better. can you say: i built some new muscle.

but i think i want to go back to belly dance 1 or 2 times a week- i really miss dancing. i need to look into this.
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so this whole weight loss thing is for me this time around. I know there are some end goals that i would like to look amazing at (wedding at gotham hall, trip in may to pr, all the time i spend in fl on the beach, my class reunion next year)but really this whole mission is for me, to feel not just good (which i feel now) but to feel amazing!!!! help my back bei n less pain, have better enurance, feel energetic, and tone up again.

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on a side note - i have a new addiction to Yahoo's Launchcast, thanks to a friend at work. it is amazing. its like having an amazing MP3 collection with out the hassle for building the thing. you just need to check it out.

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so what do i want for my birthday? you can always just go to the baroness shop on thursdays and ask "the girl" what i need- she will have a list of suggestions.
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so yeah, i had nothing interesting to say