i've been hating work this long..

This is ridiculous.

Its 4 am. I am awake.

And I hate my job, and now it's keep me awake at night.

Everyone has issues and crap with their job.

You know I wouldn't even be as pissed off about things, if other people were given the same treatment on things sometimes.

I don't even have room to talk- because everyone goes through a slack off period with things. I check my email. I hop on AIM to find out my evening plans- and whats for dinner. And yes, I do make a few calls during the day regarding getting a drs appt, or taking care of financial aid. But there comes a point where theres a line between too much phone, too much long lunches.

If I would have been taking lunches, and breakfast everyday I worked. I probably would have been repemanded. Actually, I know I would. Last summer, I was due for review (my 6 mth) and at the end of Aug , I was told in a very informal way- I spend too much time on AIM, and I check my email too much.

Well I quit using AIM unless it was an emergency to find someone. And I check email or boards during the day here and there in down time- or if I am saving down something that might take a few minutes.

Yes yes, I take 45 min lunches. But I get paid for 30 of it. I take 15 min off my time sheet. And theres been plenty of days I don't even leave the office because I have helped pick for slack for the phones. Plus my desk is where the receptionist should be. I am a Graphic Designer. I am not a receptionist. And yet- I sign for the UPS, and I tell people "no someone over there will help you" all day long. I have been asked and told I was going to be moved for awhile now. And I haven't.

Yes, when the boss is on vacation you slack a little. But I watched other people slack way beyond my level of slacking, and not one word get said about it. And I was questioned what i got done while the boss was away. Which happened to just be one press kit. Because I also was off on vacation that week. So I was away wed afternoon thursday friday and monday.

And yes I chat occasionally with my co workers. And I take personal time. I am not an angel.

but lately- theres been a level of difference between other employees and myself. And I am sick of it.

I kept blowing it off.

But I decided I was going to get rid of everything one by one untill my stress level is back to normal.

So, being that I am only working right now- and everything is in my life- I don't have problems with.

I would have to say what has been bothering me the most.

Work.

I am not given any challenging jobs. I am bored with the crap I do. To the point I don't even pay attention to half of it

oh, I got blamed for errors that actually went out, that were in the original document that I worked from. That I think was where part of my issue began.

A period at the end of a phrase, and a capital "m" in a line went out in a picture for a course went out. And I will take credit for that- and the only reason why it didn't get changed for production was, no one told me about it before. And trust me that those docs were proofed a million times before they left my screen.

Anyway, i made some complains on Friday, along with the unless things change- I will have to seek employment else where. And I was asked why. And I didn't even get to half my list.

And in yesterday mornings "closed door talk" with one of the people- my name was mentioned with the complaints. And that was actually told from person "a " to person "b" that I ratted.

Which actually from an over heard convo, I found out some nasty things were said about me such as in the up coming meeting "I am going to make her cry about all the problems and issues with the demo etc..."

Grow up you 35 year old woman. The only reason why i said anything about you taking all the long lunches and crap was well I get docked for time, and you don't.

Its turned into a "buddy buddy team" against me.

And quite frankly, i hate bullshit like this.

And my boyfriend wonders why I have no female friends.

Because females are stupid. They don't think. They always make cliques. And shit. No matter how old they get, they remain the same.

I think it was the fact that she was so pissed off she said crap like that. UGHHH thats what gets to me. And the only reason why people get mad about stuff like this was the fact that they were doing something wrong, and they got busted on it. Thats the only reason why. People wouldn't get mad if they weren't doing something wrong.

You know, I hated grammer school and high school becsue of people like that.