a new look

so it was time, the pink was killing me, the title needed a change, and so i did what i wanted to do and used a different, cleaner looking template

i am back at my desk, and i realized i just don't blog as much as i used to. back when i had my own office, and i spent a lot of time editing video and waiting for things to render out, i spent time blogging. looking at craigslist, planning time away.

now, there are days i go with out reading email even at home.

is it that i am any busier?
no, i am about the same on busy level. the work i do now i feel has more clout and impact than the work i did before. i spend for more time in meetings, far more time doing work away from my desk.

maybe that is the change. i do not sit still as much as i used to.
i also do not feel the need to bitch about work at my new place. i like the work. i like the people. i like taking the train. i like not taking classes every night. i like having my thesis finished.

maybe that is the change, I am simply happier with the status of my day to day life, including not living in a house hold with insane landlords, or leaky ceilings, or no heat. content with my relationship even if it has its stressful times. pleased with my choice of lifestyle. amounts ot work related travel and weekends away.

financially, i am broke. i just do not care. i pay all my bills, i am trying to figure a way to keep my car and still save some money and start paying off my student loans. i buy latex once in awhile. i stopped buying clothes for work. i go out now and again. i have dinners at home and pack my lunch. but i wouldn't change my late 20's living 3 minutes from 1st Ave and 14th in williamsburg, and paying a lot of money in rent. i pay for the things i love. the fun of nyc, and the nice old school street i live on. although i should refrain from 2 times a month at acupuncture, but it makes me feel so good!

i guess one of these days i will figure it all out; as for now..
the sun is shining, i had salmon for lunch and a half smile on my face.

spring is here

the change from winter to spring is usually a smooth and happy transition, this year is no exception. the home front is much better. the long talks and reconciliation last week followed by the week apart gave us quite a wonderful day yesterday and what feels like a million more to come


work is still like a freight train but I am getting used to it, and finding a lot of enjoyment in the process. i spent the week in orlando team teaching and had the time of my life doing so! I do not know if I would want to teach everyday, but I did enjoy a break from my normal tasks. but tomorrow is back to work in ny, but not the normal routine just the commute. hopefully all the things that have been talked about will come to pass in the next few weeks.

the only part of spring i do not like is the sniffles. as all the plants come out to say hello with their spring flowers, my sinuses start to make a lot of snot and pain for me to deal with.


with all the work travel in the next few weeks, i really feel like j and i need to escape, just us, and no work attached, so i think i am going to go think about that and see what we can do about flying to france for a week

"thats a fuck load of monkeys"
"whats a fuck load of monkeys- is it like a gaggle of geese?"
"its bigger than a butt-load of monkeys"

this is just a glimpse at the conversations justin and i have while at home

usually, they are more intelligent. yet, not as funny

the current stuff comming out of justins mouth

"when do we switch to metric time?"
shana-huh? blank look on face
"well i have spent a lot of time lately dealing with conversions of metric to imperial time"
(shanas thoughts ealier on imperial measurements: is that like the army? ohh IMPERIAL like roalty...ohh you mean US meaurements! duh! )
"well you see metric is in units of 10 and imperial is in units of 12. So wouldnt that mean time is an impreal system when can we switch to (some mathematical blabber here)...."

i was just going to type that i was excited to go see "nice jewish girls gone bad" this evening and that if we dont leave the house it is because there are monkies on the tv.

yummm i get dojo tonight for dinner!

to say i miss a lot of what was is an understatement
to say i am sad, and alone is something i do not want to admit to

my eyes pinch from crying.

for you not to remember the one thing i remember so clearly makes me angry and feeling ignorant in believing something for so long, i thought you meant. but didnt. i thought was important, but isnt. that i have based dreams and safety on but was false.

again, caught blind sided from my own stupidity.

not much to say

but i had a recent complaint that i never update. i mean seriously, once every few weeks with some new travel information isn't enough for you.

Oh? you mean to tell me you actually enjoy reading about what smutty antic I am up to this week?

Aside from my last week in florida, it surrounded by a period and food poisoning on one end and a yeast infection on the other, and now it feels like a cold is coming on.

Aren't I just a barrel of monkeys

Work is good, but busy as usual. Trying to keep one step ahead of the piles of paper on my desk and trying to keep out from under the amount of tasks I take on.

tonight, J and I are going to look at a table in Park slope. It doesnt come with chairs, but i figure we can buy some red chairs next month. Or maybe my mom will buy em for us!

However, it will be nice to finally have a real table in the kitchen and a computer desk in the 2nd bedroom. which will mean, I can finally finish unpacking both rooms.

ughh there goes my email again, i feel like a maid with a really demanding child who has a bell.

see you in a few days, with some exciting fun on this weekends ailments, and the trampling party pics.